You carry questions you'd never dare raise out loud, so you nod along and feel like a fraud for it. But doubt isn't the opposite of faith. It's often a sign that your faith is alive enough to wrestle. The disciples doubted right in front of Jesus, and He didn't throw them out. He met them in it. Your questions don't disqualify you. Bring them honestly to God. He'd rather have your real doubts than your fake certainty.