It's not fury so much as a deep ache. You expected God to show up a certain way, and He didn't, and now there's this quiet letdown sitting in your chest. That's worth naming. Disappointment with God is real, and you're allowed to feel it. Bring Him the gap between what you hoped for and what happened. He doesn't ask you to fake gratitude. He invites you to tell Him the truth and to keep trusting that He sees the whole story you can't.